I think I will always be emotionally driven, no matter what I try to talk myself into or out of
Anonymous asked: "are you religious/ do you believe in god?"
not even a little bit. and before I get more asks let me (kinda) explain
- People ask me if I’ve read the bible. Yes, I have, and I don’t believe in/am not moved by anything in it. From a young age (9 or 10) I knew I’d never be the religious type. I do, however, study religions of the world because I find religion to be interesting and I respect peoples’ faiths. All faiths.
- I am not afraid of my own mortality. I say this because I know countless people who use the argument “don’t you want to go to heaven after you die? why would you want to believe there’s nothing after death?" Everyone struggles with the idea of non existence at some point. I was taught to use religion as a pacifier to soothe those fears. I understand that it’s appealing to some to think that they’ll meet up in heaven and all will be well but I just don’t believe it and I don’t need to because I’m not afraid.
- People ask me why I just won’t accept God to avoid going to hell. Well there’s your answer. If my only reason for loving an unseen entity is a fear of “eternal suffering in a lake of fire” then that’s not much of a reason. I can’t fear something I don’t believe in. I used to think that I could force myself to pray and believe in God to avoid said lake of fire but I couldn’t. I don’t need God as insurance after death. I can’t justify living my life by the bible just because I’m afraid. It’s not genuine. It’s not heartfelt.
- I live my life morally and strive to be a good person because that’s who I choose to be, not because a book told me to be kind or loving. I believe good people are good because they just are. Not for a reward.
- A majority of conversations I try to have about religion end horribly because the other party is so narrow minded. (I am not saying ALL RELIGIOUS PEOPLE. I am talking about people that I have personally had a conversation with. Save your hate. Don’t attack me. Go away.) They would never entertain any ideas that didn’t relate to the bible. The popular response was “You just have to have faith”. Well no. If I’m going to base my life off the teachings of an old book I’m going to study it, try to understand it, question it, etc. I can’t just say “...oh, well I read it in a book so I guess that’s the honest truth.” My mind doesn’t work that way. Saying “you might as well" isn’t a convincing argument.
- It doesn’t help that every person who has tried to convert me tries to make me feel foolish for questioning God and get angry when I make them feel foolish when I ask them why they don’t question God. Questioning doesn’t make me a bad person.
I could go on and on but i’ll just leave it at that. (Bring on the I’m praying for you and the You’ll burn in hell anonymous messages. Happens every time.)
Very well said
My life turned the fuck around this week and I am so grateful